But I think I've had enough failures to know that, there is no use lamenting about it. Instead, I should get back up and go to tutors, ask them what's wrong, make sure that I don't repeat the same mistakes.

Without failures, you can never be better.

Anyways, discarding my academic results, I honestly had such a good time. On Monday, I went for a hip hop class held by another dance society (there's like 20+ dance societies in my university) and had so much fun. Obviously, I can't memorise the choreography so I was just randomly dancing. And suddenly, my teacher selected me to do another dance. Basically, if you're in the dance class and then you will be given time to rehearse, then the teacher/choreographer will observe. At the end of the class, they will have this thing called 'select groups' where they select some students who perform well to perform it another time. It was so much fun and I felt so honoured. I was just very happy and it did make me realise the joy of just being myself. 

Then, I also went for my Thursday swimming sessions. Mind you that these sessions are crazy, I dread it so much, because it is a coached sessions by two triathlon coaches from Loughborough University. Fun fact: Loughborough university is one of the UK sports unis. The training session is super tiring but I always feel so so happy after.

"Well done, it's only gonna get easier from here."

Yesterday, I also decided to go and ask the lecturer some questions. I know it seemed trivial but for the past 1.5 years I didn't bother asking questions to the lecturer because I was intimidated. With everyone, with the students. 

And I just felt, clarified.

Like I can actually understand the content. I'm so so happy.

I'm so grateful for everything. Even when the whole world is falling apart, Allah still gives me an opportunity to be happy and to rise again. This is why I love Him so much.

I will leave you to this heartfelt and emotional song. Hopefully you get to learn by now that if you only face your fears, you get to see what you are truly capable of.