there's just so many things to say in the span of five weeks but i will start with the things I learnt today

today i went to see the kenilworth fireworks

which made me tear up as i saw the fireworks

dont blame me i have feelings

i remembered my new years eve

it was awful

everyone ditched me for a party i wasnt invited to

my friend went out with her boyfriend, now former

i was in the dark

i genuinely wanted to see the london fireworks with them

but i was left alone

in the flat in king's cross

only seeing a glimpse of the firework

from the side of the window

all by myself

allah listens

He always does

and now He gave me the opportunity to see the fireworks

directly facing the beautiful gleaming Victorian castle

with shades of blue

fireworks ignited

spark by spark

as my tears shed

thinking of how

Allah has never stopped listening to me

When He heard me telling Him how sad I was that I'm alone on New Year's Day,

He said, "your time will come."

it is my time now.

with new people who may be more of a friend to you

than those people ever will.