I am now queuing to get into the gate. It’s taking quite a while and I might not be able to write before boarding so I might as well start now.

Wow guys, it really has been the best summer break yet. I think it’s because I had a lot of time for myself, since I never take breaks. Right after SPM, I was awarded the scholarship to start my A-Levels in January, about a year and a half later, it was that time where I anxiously wait for my A-Level grades, then last year I had an internship.

So I just passed the security check and as I wanted to go into the gate, they said that I’m one hour too early to go into the gate. So yay, here I am looking like a weirdo waiting to board London. It’s okay, I wouldn’t mind waiting. I’ve got my laptop and a phone with me, I should be okay.

Anyways, back to my summer story, basically this summer break was literally a break for me. After having no breaks, I finally have a me-time. So I did the most 'me' thing possible. The only problem was, if I want to do some 'me' things, how do I gain money? Freelancing.

So I did as much freelancing as possible, earn just enough money to cover my dance and yoga expenses. And that is literally all that I did throughout this summer. A lot of dance, started out yoga to help me with dance, meet up with some friends and more importantly, spent a lot of quality time with my cousins.

I have a cousin who is engrossed with his digital device, which makes sense when you are a kid in the 21st Century, and that you have no friends to play with after school since your sister is in a boarding school and your grandma is pretty much sleeping most of the time. You can't blame her as well, fatigue comes with old age. So Youtube is the way to go. When I came back, whenever possible I try to get him out of the Youtube vortex and play some card games. Sometimes I get tired from all the morning workouts, but I try to make up for it by playing with him at night. I also have cousins who come almost every weekend, so I try to be there and play with them as much as possible. My (not so) newborn cousin is the cutest! He can talk, albeit gibberish and when he wants to go somewhere he will point to the direction. He is so funny as well! When we take pictures with him, he would push the other people's heads away so that he can get the centre spot in the picture.

I will miss them so much, my family, my friends and my dance teachers.

I think dance took up most of my summer time. I go to dance classes every Wednesday, Thursday, sometimes Friday and recently even on Sundays! I finally got to take a class from the dance instructor I've been wanting to be a student of since, forever. Last time, her classes are always so full. But it's because she IS a good instructor! I only got to go to her class once but I learnt so much from her. I discovered a dance class with an instructor who specialises in dancehall and realised I looooove dancehall. Hopefully in the next break, I get to go to London to take up dancehall classes. I also explored more heels classes and fell in love with that too. And honestly, the dance community is soooo empowering! I've never been in a community where I've been so welcomed! Maybe some of my relatives may not support me in this hobby, but to be honest, all they do is tell me that I'm fat every time I visit them instead of empowering me to exercise (which I do almost every day). But what do they know, right? I can't blame them, I just wish they are more understanding of the millennials.

But it's different with the dance community, so it's really not surprising when I like to spend more time dancing than going out to visit people. Maybe in time, when I grow up, or probably achieve the body shape that they accept, then I'll be brave enough to confront them. Right now, I am a coward and ignorance is bliss.

And as you readers know, I have suffered anxiety and it was heightened when I was in university. I think it's because I had to do everything alone by myself. Most of my uni friends have college friends with them, or their boyfriends are with them too so their parents can just tell their boyfriend to take care of them. In first year, I was completely alone and all I wanted to do was to escape to London.

Going to my third year, it's safe to say that I am finally pretty stable and yoga has helped me increased that level of stability and serenity in me. I have also started reading self-help books. This summer, I have read at least 10 books. Instead of spending my time on Instagram, I have instead use them to read, in LRT and MRT stations, at home and anytime I'm waiting for people, really. I'm currently reading a book called 'Mindset' and boy I could relate so well with the 'fixed mindset'. Yes, I'll admit that I had a fixed mindset and hopefully grow more awareness on having a 'growth mindset'.

Guys, I can't believe it. It's going to be my final year in Warwick University! What's my plan, you ask? Yes, Masters is in mind but it would not be an immediate thing, but I'm not sure too. Like I said, I used to be a long-term planner. But right now, I just want to give it my all in third year and score the best that I can, while enjoying my final year in university. And I hope we can all learn something from it.