In
Love
Love is a funny thing, innit?
You'd think that this is the year you continue to be the best version of yourself
Pay the most expensive accountability course
In hopes you finally pass your exam
Pay for your monthly squad fees to improve your swim
Attempt to go to work in the morning to study
Now that you've reached the tail end,
you realise,
you never wanted to take the exam in the first place
you've found your placing in the work that you do
and perhaps you know yourself better than anyone
that you were never a multi, nor a tripletasker
you've got your eyes on the prize
yet your loved one sees another
But still,
You go to work early
In hopes that he will come to work too
You give your all at work,
Just for him to give you a thumbs up,
Or a 'good luck'
Even if you miss your daily ritual of saying good morning to him,
you make sure that he is not forgotten,
by flashing your award-winning smile,
when you both glance at one another,
You wonder too,
why would he stand still,
frozen like ice,
as you walk to your cubicle;
why he comes to work on a Monday,
when the world works from home,
when queried he'll say with a smile,
he wants to be productive.
when you're busy typing away,
and you stand up to take a quick break,
you hear a chair creak
from him who immediately turned away.
of course you want him,
he's all you've asked for,
at least partly,
when you cried to God a few months ago,
begging Him for the one
for a stranger to bond with you about Him,
just as you touched down from talking to Him,
who wouldn't think it was a sign?
maybe it is,
maybe it isn't,
maybe he is just another kind person,
but this is my feelings.
I will own it
Good men don't come often,
He makes me want to be better
I will of course continue to work on myself,
with or without him,
but he would be a great addition to my life,
so yes,
I will take this chance with him.
Because who cares what happens next?
if he is another ship passing through the night,
i am still blessed,
because Allah is so so kind,
to have me chance upon someone who inspires me
to get closer to Him.
and if he's gone,
at least He is there with me.
He always has.