I am now at an age where everyone is headed towards different phases in life

I just received an invitation to a friend's wedding,

It's funny how, just 6 years ago, he spoiled my first love's pickup line for me, one that I remember for the rest of my life.

It's funny how, my first love and I, supported him as he tried to pursue a really tall, gorgeous and smart girl.

And now, he is off to marry another woman. My first love went on to be in a stable and happy relationship with another person. 

While I continue to chase my dream. But nowadays, I find myself thinking, "is this what I truly want?". Perhaps like them, I do want to settle down, and find the love of my life. 

But life doesn't work that way. I was just writing on my journal the other day on how Allah plans my plot. Unlike me, He never has a writer's block, so His plots for me are just very interesting. Challenging to go through, but interesting once you get to the end of the plot. His tests are always going to be there, and I don't know if I am His brave soldier. And perhaps this invitation is another one of His test, to see if I can endure being on my own while I continue my own path.

What is my path really? To pass this exam I hope, to retake the exam I failed, to regain my stamina back (after getting Covid - twice!), to be appreciative of the friends around me, and to accept that 

With that said, I am genuinely happy for the two. They deserve nothing but the best.  Despite the adversities that they had to overcome, they pulled through. Although I won't be able to talk to the groom as much,  I'd like to wish him that.

And to my first love, if he's attending, I'd like to wish him the best. Whether he is working in a bank, or owning a quaint coffee shop that he's always dreamed of, I will always be rooting for him.