i have so many questions 

why, what, how, when

i am happy yet miserable

what are we doing?

but mostly whys

why are we doing this?

these questions have been bottled up

because i dread the answers

whenever the truth comes to light,

and i finally ask,

the answers are always somber

and i take forever

to rebuild myself again

so i rest with ambiguity

even when i'm dying to know the answer

but i don't think i can take it

for once, 

will i ever get the answer i want?