I know we don't talk that much nowadays

Maybe some things only you and I know,
and of course, You know it better than me, because you're God
And I full-heartedly believe in you

Because You make me content
Like my life has purpose
The more challenges you gave me, the better I bounce back
The first few obstacles were hard,
But you gave me so many platforms
and healthy coping mechanisms

For me to be better

To be a better servant

And yet I still don't talk to you as often as I should

I'm so sorry God
You know I love you, right?

And the devils and I make excuses
to not talk to you

My mind says yes
and my dark soul says no
and I am trapped again and again

But only You, the Almighty know how I feel
Towards You, my family, my friends
Those who cared for me, those who don't

But this year you surrounded me with people who care for me

This year you showed me why I am here
This year you gave me more challenges
But I don't feel as bad as I was in the past years

because now every challenge you gave me

is because You love me,

right?

Thank you God

for showing me the true purpose of the life in dunya

and how short life is

I may not be Your best servant

But at least I know

You are near me

and I am protected by Your shield