I have an ambitious goal for this Ramadan,

but this goal is not without its challenges,

All I want to do is to do good,

But rather, I messed things up again.

I guess if I say, I'd like to jump off a cliff, I would be pulling yet another pity party.

Perhaps, I will never see this goal achieved in this lifetime.

I will always be the black sheep of the family, no matter how much I try not to.

I am tired of being the postman, dear world.

I am tired of being the punching bag,

Of all the anger and frustration.

I am tired of this adulting stuff.

I am already tired with my own problems.

Why can't I get things right, 

When will this ever solve?

Please help solve it for me.

Because I honestly cannot take it anymore.