I felt like I haven't written in here for a while. A few days ago, I was told to reactivate my Instagram, I was quite adamant to do this, but my manager said to treat it as charity work. 

But one good thing about reopening Instagram is that I made a new friend! I was ranting on the post on AA Plus and replied to someone's comment, and she reached out to me and asked if we could both say things we are grateful for every day. I really needed that, because, there's just way too many things that are happening in my life right now. That if I keep on wallowing in this sadness, I lose out on the best things in life. 

Life works in such a beautiful way, don't you think? 

I prayed to God, I cried in my prayers, sometimes I'd occasionally wake up for Tahajud prayers to help me with all these feelings inside my head. I have this strong feeling that it's only going to get worse from here. And yet, as I talked to Him, He gave me a new friend who is helping me as I go through the turbulences of my life. 

Because He knows, I am having a hard time opening up to my friends. It's not that I don't want to, its just so mentally draining. He knows more than I do. And all I had to do was talk to Him.

One day, when I look back at this, I won't have to say that this is the worst patches of my life, instead I hope to say that I could still see a peek of light from the darkness because verily, with hardship comes ease. (As-Sharh; 5).

Starting anew today. This week. With the intention of discovering more about myself and my passion. To finally get out from this rut, and to live more for the sake of the hereafter.