Gosh, I sound like a teenager with that topic.

How did I get here? I don't know myself. But as you delve in deeper, you will find that their fans are actually pretty intellectual people. I know stan twt account owners are renowned lecturers, therapists, mathematicians etc. But anyways, today's post is a random one, I never got the chance to publicly convey my appreciation to these boys, who have helped me overcome what I felt was the darkest phase of my life.

Honestly I can't remember how I got here. What I do know was that I felt empty, so I decided to watch a couple of their interview videos. That was my origin story. I was watching Run BTS episodes 53-56, which prompted me to write this. I think what got people hooked is because of the amount of content they give out to us. Sometimes I do wonder if it's just a facade, but you can tell it is not, because the genuineness is felt by the audience as you see them do stuff that are so relatable, so close to home.

First, BTS helped me find my way back home. I think I am slowly comfortable in my own skin, and that I should know that my life is precious, and no one can take that away, not even yourself. The first time I listened to the meaning of Mikrokosmos, I cried because it was during a point where I really felt that I was useless and that I don't serve a meaning to this world. But indeed, everyone is here for a purpose, God has created each and one of us so differently, so that we can use our strengths to make the world a better place, so why waste your time, your lifeline, thinking you are not worth it?

They helped me improve my relationship with others. Seeing them so well-behaved and respectful to others despite their roaring fame makes you realise that sometimes people are there to support you not just because you are talented, but because you are true to yourself, and that you have made a profound impact in their life. So for me to be a better version of myself, I have to appreciate those who have supported me and empowered me by reciprocating their love and kindness. 

It made me realise that who you surround with truly matters. For you to be successful, you have to be among those who want to succeed, and those who want you to succeed too. Perhaps help will not be given, but you will need to go that extra length to get it. And that it's okay to tell others that you are struggling, or you're weak at something because we all start somewhere. So what if we fail once? You can always try again

I realise that it is okay to not know what you want. Suga's famous words, "it is okay to not have a dream", was even made aware by my mum (yes I was shocked too). It is okay to feel like, "omg I really don't know what I am doing". What matters is that you start. In the episode I watched just now, Jin said that he used to go with the flow, but with the members, he realised that he is a man who lives fiercely. In my opinion, the reason why he had that epiphany (pun unintended) was because he went with the flow. He just plunged into this opportunity without thinking too much about it. Perhaps I should just let the water flow, and in that process I will begin to realise who I truly am. 

Then, I realised that, you don't have to prove to anyone that you worked hard to be where you are now. The reason why Jin is my bias is because of these simple yet remarkable words spoken by him, "Only you have to know how hard you work."  I can be proud of my achievements without the external validation. I can acknowledge my small wins by myself, and celebrate it with my small circle of friends who care for me if I want to. BTS has worked so hard to be where they are now. They are so diligent, and they showed us that hard work will never betray you.

Thank you BTS for this. I owe you one.