But indeed, all it took was to make peace with myself, and the people who truly loved me. The biggest lesson I learnt in 2021 is that there will be people I can trust, so I can always lean on them.

I’ve never known what it’s like to be in a team before. So when Allah gave me the opportunity to be in an A-Team. It felt unreal. For once, it felt like I had support, and that everyone just lifts each other up, and that is reassuring. So much that they gave me inspiration to work harder too, and that was probably why I got that award, which I felt, was undeserving, because I know that there were others who were much more capable than me. It felt, unreal. Then, I realised, I am the way that I am, because of the support from my team.

But just when I thought it could be my reality, one of the team members is leaving for greener pastures. I am definitely happy for this person, but I can’t say I’m not completely sad either. 

I was looking forward to learn more because I enjoyed the dynamics of the team we had. For a while, I was a bit stunned, and thought, yup, my abandonment issues have kicked in.

But over time, we managed to find a new hire, who seemed decent and knowledgeable. And the person is handing over one of the more important portfolios to me. I felt honoured, but also pressured to work hard. But a quote the person shared with me will be held in me for dear life. I will work hard bit by bit, and one day, I hope I get to reap that hard work in years to come. 

I also learnt to not cling on to the people, but to cling on to yourself. People don’t last forever, but that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. Because one day, it might be you leaving for greener pastures. And you can only hope that the people you work with will find you a wonderful person to work with, as much as I enjoyed working with my current team.

With that said, I hope to make the most out of that person’s mentoring before the person departs for the future ahead.